Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Inertia...or the pinball machine...

the ball that began rolling for ryan at the beginning of the year has been rolling faster and faster lately, and now is about to plunge into that deep dark place known as "deployment"....ick...i know that for the crowd i put on that stoic face. the one that says i can do this, no big deal. but really, its going to suck. i hate every moment that he has to be at work right now, and even more the moments i have to be at work while he is home...the last few days of him being home...and that year of darkness is yawning, it mouth opening wider, about to swallow me. i'm really not sure how i am going to make it through this one...not like there is a choice really, but i already feel battered like the ball of a pinball machine...

1 comment:

  1. Bekah, I'm so sorry that you are facing this. Just remember that what gets swallowed eventually plops out the other end. :) Love you, and I'm praying for you and Ryan through this. You're not alone, and you can chat with me any time you want to and then disappear for 3 weeks and then chat again, and I won't take it personally...honest. Heck, we can even encourage the other to bathe now and again....

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